Emmy Faye coming this November is beyond exciting (and surreal) for us, and it hardly feels like we have enough time to get ourselves ready for it! But, in an effort to try, I’ve made a list (big surprise there) of all the things I want to do before our girl gets here! Now, this is more or less just a fun to-do list; there’s a ton of other important stuff that we need to do too, but I won’t let this last season of it being just the two of us slip away without giving it a proper farewell. 10 things (and a million others) to do, and only a few months take them all on!
- Take a baby moon.
Months ago, our original plan was to vacation in Santa Barbara, CA in the same place we did for our honeymoon for our baby moon, but the plans fell through. The goal for this trip is to 1) be fun & relaxing, and 2) definitely not break the bank. So we’re trying to make plans that feel very last minute, and it might turn into more of a “staycation!”
- Visit friends in Austin.
[We did this, actually, and I’d love to do it again!] We love ATX, and we really love our friends. So of course, we want to make an effort to see them before baby girl comes and we don’t have the same kind of freedom we do now. No, I don’t want to be the parents that convince themselves that having a baby traps them in their house for 18 years, but it definitely won’t be as easy to jump in the car and take a 2.5 hour trip in a few months.
- Take a trip to the beach/beach town.
I think it’s been 2 years since we’ve gone to the beach, and I have been craving some salt and sand (not to eat, don’t worry). Galveston is definitely not preferable, and potentially still a good place to pick up a flesh eating virus??, but I think a day trip could be in our future. Plus, I’m not really wanting to do much other than get my toes in the sand and listen to the crashing waves for a while. No swimsuits, thank you.
- Tackle some pending house repairs/projects.
There’s some rewiring that needs to be done in our attic and we also need to make the attic a more friendly place for storage (there is nowhere to walk around and the entry is like a tiny crawlspace in our garage ceiling–requiring a ladder…), we’ve talked for months about expanding our patio/building a deck area, we need to paint the baby room and I’d like to paint our front door too, and we’d love to redesign our master bathroom too.
- Plant a garden.
I would love a vegetable garden, an herb garden, and a flower garden! If all three could be harvested on the regular, and I’d be a happy girl :) The big reasons why this one has not gotten done yet are, 1) it’s been too hot, and 2) I’m trying to avoid mosquitos at all costs. But hopefully when it’s slightly cooler, I’ll have time to plant at least one of these!
- Prepare the nursery.
The decided nursery inspiration has gone from all-out Peter Pan, to things that have to do with flying, to a bohemian/tribal feel, and finally to what I’ve realized I’m most comfortable with: rustic/country chic with touches of Peter Pan inspiration and a very slight emphasis on birds. I’m beyond excited to see it all completed, and I hope I can find/craft all the pieces I’m dreaming of incorporating. We’ve already gotten most of the furniture we need, so now it’s just about filling the room with pretty & inspiring things!
- Finish recording my EP.
Somehow, this rather simple project has been pushed all the way from January (maybe earlier) to now. We’ve tried to get the ball rolling four times, but every time something comes up that keeps us from making any progress. So, my new goal is to complete it before E gets here!
- Take some maternity photos.
I’m a huge sucker for photography, but usually I’m the one behind the lens.But this time, I would love to have a picture of me carrying this child that makes me feel beautiful. I’ve already contacted my dream photog to be behind the lens on this (who also happens to be a friend of mine from college!), and I’m hoping to be able to have a little shoot done sometime in late September or early October.
- Go see Coldplay in Dallas.
[AH!!! I can’t believe this is TODAY!] J bought me Coldplay tickets for the Head Full of Dreams tour for my birthday this year. This is a band I’ve dreamed of seeing live for 10+ years, so it was one of the best gifts I’ve ever gotten! The tickets were bought before I knew I was pregnant, and guess what? The concert is the day I enter my third trimester. My doctor cleared us for this, so IT IS HAPPENING!
- Celebrate our 4 year Anniversary
This year will be the last year we have an anniversary without kids (crazy!), so I want to make sure it is a cherished day/weekend. I’m not sure what we will do–if we will stay in town, or venture out–but I definitely want to make it a special celebration.
Now, I better start building my after baby bucket list! I’m sure there is so much in the first year that we’ll want to do/document, and lists are my favorite way of organizing myself enough to get things done! In fact, there are a few other lists I need to make… So much to do, so little time! Xoxo
This is the last week of my second trimester. WHOA. I have loved this part of my pregnancy so much! I’ve worried less about things, I began to feel her moving, my bump became a real bump, we found out she’s a she, the nursery has furniture in it, and (my favorite part) I stopped have consistent morning sickness. But I happily say farewell, because it just means I will sooner say hello to my baby girl.
Y’all, I’m about to serve up a dish of piping hot honesty. I hope you’re hungry. Because I’ve been pondering these things lately, and [in no particular order] honestly…
- I’m scared that J and I won’t be able to financially support a growing family.
- I’m scared that between working full-time, being a wife, and being a mom, something will need to give… but nothing can.
- I’m scared that I’m going to miss precious moments with my baby while I’m sitting at a desk in my office, and she’s with my sweet mom.
- I’m scared that we won’t get to do the things we’ve always planned to do and haven’t yet.
- I’m scared of the Zika virus (for real, don’t laugh!)
- I’m scared that we’ll never be able to afford another vacation again.
- I’m scared of how vulnerable my body is right now, and how it’s the only barrier between my baby and this mad world.
We’ve been told over and over that we would never “feel ready” to become parents. We’d always think we could be making more money, we’d always feel like there are more things we want to do “before kids”, and there’d always be a hundred million reasons why “it’s just not a good idea right now.” And, honestly (since truth is the theme I have going here), everyone who told us that was absolutely right, but we got to a place where we felt comfortable enough to throw those other cautions to the wind and just let nature take it’s course.
If you’ve been following my blog for any length of time, you probably know that I’m a believer in Jesus Christ and in God’s plan for each of our lives. I don’t believe in accidents; I believe that everything is beautifully orchestrated to bring glory to God, for the good of those who love him. So, even though it’s easy for me to be scared of so many things and worry that we jumped into this all too soon, I remember the way God laid the groundwork for his glory to be shown in this situation a long time ago. And instead of being scared, I should be hopeful, and joyful, and, most of all…
- I’m thankful that the Lord has provided for every single need we have ever had. Our cup overflows!
- I’m thankful that J and I are both employed at good places during a time when so many are losing their jobs.
- I’m thankful that my mom is willing and able to care for our baby girl instead of having to put her in daycare. What a blessing that is to us!
- I’m thankful for this new adventure God has gifted us with, and for all the happy memories I could have never imagined we’d make.
- I’m thankful that we live in a country that offers some of the best health care we could get, and a community that is actively working against our harm.
- I’m thankful for Saturdays & Sundays, for holidays, and for the ability to save our pennies for the things we really want.
- I’m thankful that God is my protector, and the author of all life. He is holding everything, in me and around me, together.
I have no reason to fear the future, because He is already in it. He’s reaching out, asking me to step out into the waves and trust Him. And the more I give thanks, the more everything tends to look a little less scary. So, I guess, honestly…
God is just so darn good.